Just crazy.

Last night was interesting. I ran into Josh at Rum Shack. I was fine with that, but the more I drank the more I got that eternal girl problem of "wanting to talk about it". But before I could get into that Scott showed up and asked me to come over to watch a movie tonight and I said yes without thinking about it because I was just glad someone was paying attention to me. Then on my way to talk to Josh I ran into Toby who gave me his business card and told me he wanted to take me out to dinner. On top of that this guy Mike was there and tells me I missed out on a great dinner when I turned him down last week. I'm like are you kidding me??? By the time I get to the end of the bar to talk to Josh he barely says a word to me so I go back over to Scott who just plants a big kiss right on me and I am like oh no. Now Josh is mad and Scott wants to know whats going on with me and Josh and I just tell him it's complicated and so now Scott bows up like boys do and was like "hes lookin at me im gonna go over there are kick his ass" WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH GUYS???? I calm him down and he leaves, I walk back over to Josh and he wont even look at me, says I should go back to making out with Scott. I swear, I can get myself in a pickle. So I end up crying and we talk about a few things and while I am wrapping things up with Josh my phone rings and It's a text from Matt, the cute drummer in Austin, says he wishes I was there. HOLY HELL. So I cancelled dinner with Scott, and locked myself in my room alone. Scott thinks it's because he got all crazy about Josh, I told him that I was sick. I lied. It was because he got real crazy real fast. I am starting to think it's best to just dream about the guy in Austin rather than actually come in contact with any guys on this island. I am going back to being a hermit.