Horrifying.

Yesterday was a tough day.

Lilly came home which was awesome, we went to the middle school that she went to growing up to say hi to her Dad who was helping with the pig roast fundraiser they were putting on. Then he went home and we decided to stop by Chris' house to say hi. We hung out for a bit then Lilly suggested we stop by her house to pick up her mom's bike for me to ride instead of her pumping me around town on her's all day. So we rode down her street and at the intersection right before hers I noticed some cop cars and people standing around outside on the side street but we thought nothing of it. We pulled up in the driveway and went into the house. We saw her parents outside in the back yard both looking at something so Lilly said "shhhh I bet it's an iguana." so we crept up behind them being really quiet as to not scare the iguana, then we realized they werent looking at the ground. They were looking through the trees that seperate their back yard from the caddy corner neighbor's yard. Before they could even say anything to us our eyes locked on what they were looking at.

I have never been so horrified in my life. Before my eyes could even tell my brain what was going on we were looking at a man. A man hanging by the neck from the support beams of the patio of the neighbor's house. I am shaking just typing this. I have never seen anything like that before in my life. Lilly said I must have kinda gone into shock because when I saw it i just kept repeating "what happened what happened what was that what what what" and I don't remember saying that. Her mom just hugged me and and Lilly walked into the kitchen, opened the liquor cabinet and poured us two big rum and cokes. All day yesterday we were just drinking to try and forget what we had seen. Thank god he wasnt facing us because the visual of that would have really really ruined me. I hate to be grafic and visual with you but the thing that really got me was his movement. He was swinging in the breeze. OH god i am so sorry for sharing this story but I had to. It was just the worst thing I have ever seen. He looked like a young, clean cut man. What in his life turned so bad that he decided to end it? I can't imagine ever feeling that way. Lilly and I were telling everyone we saw how wonderful our lives are and getting all mental with folks. It's just a shame. I am really freaked out and I can't get that picture out of my head.

Sorry I had to share.