Sunday, May 25, 2008

Bored on the inside!

This evening has been a normal evening by any definition. But I have learned a few things. Number one, I don't like living in this hotel room while my apt. gets fixed. I don't know if I told yall or not but on tuesday of last week I was awoken (is that a word?) by plumbers wanting to knock my bathroom wall out to replace century old copper plumbing. They are still not done, and I have been living in room 12 since they started. Room 12 is lovely, 2 double beds, a bathroom a shower, mini fridge, microwave, tv with entertainment center and a desk! But what has been bothering me is, the space. There is too much. Its a big room and there is alot of open air! I miss my little house, where there is only room for my futon, a chair and my barstools. It is so cozy. I don't think I could ever learn to live BIG again. Small is cool. When you live in a small space you learn to love it. You only buy things you love instead of things to fill up the space. I went to the grocery store last night and bought a little food and when I stopped by my little casa to put the food in the fridge I realized how much I missed it. I miss my blue and brown walls, that I so painstakingly plastered and fixed and painted and repainted after the waterfall incident of 2008. I worked so hard. Those plumbers knocked a huge hole in my shower wall, they laid outside pvc plumbing over my art. They are supposed to come tomorrow and fix the wall so I can move back in. I will have to spend all day cleaning up because they jackhammered through the wall and there is a layer of dust on everything I own. I am venting. I'm sorry but damn. It's one thing after another. You know what? I should be counting my blessings, I am lucky that this is the worst thing going on in my life. I should delete this. lsadjflkdjsglkhdghsadlkglksdfals!!!!! Damn. I just want to go back to my little casa. Tomorrow is the big Memorial day party here at V.O. and it's a potluck! Should I cook something? All I have is frozen chicken breast and red beans and rice. Can I mix those together? Maybe grill up the chicken and slice it and toss it with the red beans and rice... hmmm.... That would mean waking up early and cooking instead of waking up early and running... we shall see. In other news, I bought 3 movies the day I bought the new shoes. Don Juan de Marco, Captain Ron, and Fried Green Tomatoes. Note to self: don't watch Fried Green Tomatoes when you have even the hint of sadness in you, even sober! Which I was. I watched it last night and cried and cried and cried like my best friend died when Mary-Louise Parker's character passed away. OH my! I'm surprised Dwayne didn't hear me in room 11! I think I need to do some yoga. OH yeah! Mom please bring the Yoga Booty Ballet when you come, that would be great! I sure hope - I have no idea what I was going to say there. I was in a daze. Ok gotta go! Happy Memorial Day! Enjoy your day!

That is the floorplan of my tiny hacienda! I love it. you may have to click on the question mark to see the page.

It was a dark calm night...

Well, it IS actually. Barely a breeze to ruffle a palm frond. Lovely though, warm, a bit muggy, but dry. I didn't go running, I decided to eat my dinner at about 6 and I felt to heavy and blah I couldn't force myself to go. I talked to my aunt Nita on the phone for a good long while which was nice, and I went to the store to see Dale. My gay boyfriend. He is leaving me on the 28th to move back to San Fransisco to live with his new lawyer boyfriend. I'm going to miss him so much. Oh whats that I hear in the distance??? Cats fighting. Oh you know what??? I was just coming home from the store and when I went to open my door, something in the bushes right next to me ran off up the hillside! It was big and loud and it scared the shitake out of me!!! You know what I think it was? THE CHUPACABRA!!! Now if you don't know me you wouldn't know my love for the Chupacabra or "goat sucker" in english. I have had a fascination with it since childhood. The legend of the Chupacabra started way back in the day in Puerto Rico which is of course only 35 or so miles from here. Well long story short I think I'm being watched by the Chupacabra, which would be an improvement considering what has been watching me lately. Drunks and losers. Anyway, the bats are out tonight munching on mosquitos, I love to watch them swoop down over the pool and flitter around. They get so close to me I am afraid they will get stuck in my dreadlocks. So I just told my neighbor Dwayne about the Chupacabra, he looked at me like I was crazy and said, "Have I ever told you you are weird?" I just nodded and continued typing. I told him to watch out because Chester the Chupacabra doesn't like non believers.


So, yesterday I went back to work after my long paid vacation, and it was a great day! Made big money and had fun with my capt. and crew. I wish all people knew how to tip properly on a boat. These people did. Awesome. So I came home knowing I didn't have to work today and I didn't even go out! I have been de-toxing for the past 4 days and I really can't tell if I feel better or worse. All I know is I am saving money. I did however spend 90 bucks on something I really needed. Shoes. Yeah I haven't worn a pair of actual running shoes with laces or any shoes other than flip flops and crocs in almost a year. I decided to buy some awesome nike shox and I want to find a gym that teaches boxing! I took a boxing class in Australia and it nearly killed me but I am in way better shape than I was there so I want to try it again. I really love punching things. And I have a lot of pent up frustration I need to take out on something other than a bottle of rum. Besides all that, I love my life! I woke up whenever I felt like it today and put my swim suit on, walked fifteen steps straight into the pool. I floated on a raft for an hour or so in the hot sun and felt invigorated! Went downstairs and chatted with Jill and Doug for a while then went to my room and watched a little of Silence of the Lambs while eating a big dill pickle. My afternoon snack. Oh yeah somewhere in there I had lunch, a slimfast. I feel like I am alot more active these days but the weight is not coming off anymore. So I am going running/jogging/walking/possibly passing out this afternoon. I have these cool new shoes so I better use them! Now I am lounging on the pool deck listening to the waves crash on the shore. Just saw a coconut fall out of a tree, sure glad I wasn't walking under it. You know that you are more likely to die from a coconut falling on your head that in a car crash in the Caribbean? Seems true. I have been thinking about my so called love life. I don't go out with the guys that ask me for millions of reasons, the other one is simple. IM FREAKING ANGRY! I don't ever talk about the stupid asshole that hurt my feelings this year because I'm trying to pretend it never happened! He freaking left the island, nay the country and didn't even say goodbye!!!! Guess that shows me just how much he cared and more importantly what a fing liar he is! HE WENT TO ENGLAND!!!! I'm telling you, as soon as I found out he was home schooled I should have run the other way. CRAZY PEOPLE!!!! I don't want to give anyone else the chance to hurt me. Not worth it. And now I'm sad because I feel like I never see my friends. Or rather they don't ever call or want to hang out. Thats what really hurts. I call and they don't call back. I feel like a big loser. I understand we are all so busy in our island lives but for fuchs sake, when your friend calls you, call them back. I heard this horrible story once about this girl calling her friend and leaving a message just to chat and the girl didn't call back and the next morning they found the friend dead! She killed herself and left a note that said "I wish you would have called sooner." BAAAAAHHHHHH! THATS SCARY! So I always call my friends back because you never know what's going on in their lives. I'm not saying I would do that at all you all know me better than that I'm just saying people don't appreciate friendship. I made cheese dip! I also bought some ruffles potato chips and for dinner tonight I am having a ham sandwich with mustard and cheese dip just like I used to at home. I can't wait. (random!) In other news, I finally brushed my hair. I think I let it go for a week this time, I had a dreadlock. It was so hard to get untangled I contemplated just dreading my hair. This guy named Spicoli said he would do it for me if I needed help. The thing is, my hair is constantly getting tangled, I am in the wind on the boat all day and unless I wear it in a bun (lame granny style) it becomes one big dread at the end of the day, and I just get in the shower when I get home and wash it and go to bed. I don't brush it out or anything. Maybe I'm lazy. Someone somewhere in the world is contemplating politics and agendas, here I am contemplating the pros and cons of letting my hair dreadlock. You don't want this life! :)