Oh wow.

So this afternoon Alex Akim and I went to Ashley's bar to have dinner, after dinner Sebastian met me at the bar and said he would drive me home. On the way we stopped at Betsy's which is just around the corner from my house, Sebastian gets tired and goes home, leaves me with these tattooed guys, whom I start chatting with. I am admiring his tat's when I realize he has the same tat I have, an old pirate rum jug, its on his hand plain as day. I take out a pen and draw how my tat is different than his. because of the aunt nasty homage. I comment on a tattoo on his neck of an outer space looking bomber thingy with stars around it like MArvin the Martian and all. Well long story short, he wanted me to come back to Hull bay with him and I wouldn't. now im home thank god, turns out he is in the Hells Angels. There is nothing wrong with them and i would love to be involved in their charity work.

Things I can't wait to do when I go home to Texas...

1. See my family and friends.
2. Wear my boots.
3. Buy a new pair of boots.
4. Eat at Taco Cabana with my Mom and drink a corona on the patio.
5. Go dancing in Ft. Worth
6. Sit on the deck in the evening while grilling out.
7. Sit on the bank of the Guadalupe for a little while.
8. Go shopping at Cavender's.
9. Drive all day long.
10. Frolic in the bluebonnets.

I will think of more. For the next 8 months my theme song will be: When the Bluebonnets Bloom by Robert Earl Keen Jr.

When The Bluebonnets Bloom

On a cold winter night, neath the silvery moon
I wished on a star, had a dream about you

Dry the tears in your eyes, I'll be coming home soon
Neath the wide open skies, where the blue bonnets bloom

Like a blanket spreading out as far as I can see
When those flowers line the road
You can look for me
I'll be hanging round the back roads like an old familiar tune
I'll be there when the bluebonnets bloom

Some people get goin to the top of the world
I'd rather be home with my bluebonnet girl
Cuz she's needing me, like a bride needs a groom
I'll be making her mine, when the bluebonnets bloom

Like a blanket spreading out as far as I can see
When those flowers line the road
You can look for me
I'll be hanging round the back roads like an old familiar tune
I'll be there when the bluebonnets
I'll be comin home you can bet on it
I'll be there when the bluebonnets bloom!

Oh I wish I could move back to Texas today!

I found my perfect place to live! Its in SMITHVILLE! Where they filmed one of my favorite movies, Hope Floats. Its a loft in the tallest building in Bastrop county! So cheap, but where the hell would I work in Smithville???

One year ago this week.

Fourth of July week, Me and Jess at the Ghost Bar on the top of the Westin Dallas. When I actually had to dress up to go to the bar, here I can wear cut off jean shorts and a Red Sox hat! Speaking of sports, I think I freak guys out with my knowledge of baseball and UFC. I sat at the bar with Boyfriend number one last night and watched the White Sox and the UFC fight all the while he totally looked bored, like any normal girl would. :) Then he went home early and I stayed on at the bar to hang out with ex boy toy numbers one and two. Inappropriate? I dunno. Thats how I roll. Now I sit at my window, listening to Robert Earl Keen Jr. on my Ipod jukebox, nursing the first hangover I have had in months, talking to the little brown lizard who just came in through the crack in the screen. As my good friend Aron Akord would say, YOU DONT WANT THIS LIFE!!! Ha hahaha!

damn damn damn

its a no go on Treazzure. They are booked solid the whole time yall are here. so we will just have to go and what we can when we can! Its gonna be awesome no matter what !

I got bored.

I cut my hair. I took like 4 inches off my bangs. I am not wearing any make up and look like the night of the living dead. I gotta go have dinner with my fake boyfriend. bye.

Today's picture from the past...

This is me circa 2005, lowering the main on the Schooner Liberty. Love that boat. Miss sailing.

Dont freak out mom!

So, I used to watch the movie The Never Ending Story like every day when I was younger. My mom hates it. I watched it the other day on tv here and it freaked me out. What a crazy story! No wonder I turned out this way, I watched too much Never Ending Story and Goonies! Wait, you can never watch the Goonies too many times. Funny picture.

More pics of Jack the cat.

Ok so how about this boat?

This boat is way cool and it lives in St Thomas! So, I am checking into it. I think it rocks because they have a cat. Treazzure.

Un freaking believable.

So, I am at home, its 10am, and I was supposed to be at work at 7am. Thank god it was a small group on the boat today. I slept through my sleep alarm. I hit the snooze button, so I thought, and went back to sleep. At about 9am I woke up to the sun shining in my window, which never happens because I leave the house before the sun comes over the Mountain, and I freak out! I call my boss after plugging my now dead phone in, restarting it because I have no signal in my little casa, and I get no answer. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT! I call the office and talk to one of our office girls Dereen, she just laughs at me and says that Akim did come to work and there were only 20-something people, these things happen. Well this has never happened to me, I am always so early to work and I NEVER call in sick. She said she would tell Clement I called when he calls her. I am sure he was calling my cell and getting nothing because I live in a cave and I never have any reception! I am so mad at myself. I am surprised my body clock didn't snap me awake. I think I was just really tired because I worked a full trip yesterday, then I worked a busy trip for the fireworks last night, and it was way past my bedtime when I got off work that I just had to sleep. Hope I don't get fired. We don't have a boat tomorrow so my next work day is on Monday! woo hoo! I better get over to the bank and get a money order to send home. See ya!

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I can't remember when I told you guys about Sebatian, my accidental boyfriend. It was a while ago, and he didn't call the next day like he said he would and so I immediately forgot about him. Well I was jut getting off work today but as it is the fourth of July I had to work tonight as well so I just went into Red Hook around the corner and ordered some food and when I went to the restroom, as I came out, I ran smack into Sebastian who I had not seen since the whole "you are my girlfriend" fiasco. He ran up and hugged me and exclaimed " I LOST YOUR NUMBER!" I said "THATS LAME! YOU SUCK! Then I sat at the bar and we chatted for a while, he was getting off work so I invited him out on the fireworks trip tonight, Sebastian, Meg and Killian came out as well as like 30 other paying customers. Ok I have to go to sleep its late I will write more tomorrow. Me and Sebastian are accidental boyfrined girlfriend again. uh oh. He is a nice boy. nite nite.

oh there he is. Josh is on the right.

sometimes life drops things right in your lap just when you need it.

Ok so I wish I could find a picture of Kevin Costner with his one armed shades he wears throughout the movie. This movie has been looming over me for a few months now, every time I look through Jill and Doug's movie collection I see it, I want to watch it but I never do. here is the premise..."college is over, real life can start. Well not just yet. The Groovers, five college roomates in Texas, class of 71, find breaking up is hard to do. " blah blah blah they head towards mexico, blah blah blah things happen, they fight, they make up, everythign works out, life goes on. The best part for me was the beginning where they showed west texas in all its desert-ie glory. Mentioning Marfa TX where they filmed Giant, and the real thing that got me, the fact that throughout the entire movie... Kevin Costner wears sunglasses that only have one arm. Exibit A. I have gone without a sunglass arm for over two weeks now. I don't know why. This movie made my cry when I saw a damn armadillo cross a road! What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!?! Makes me wanna mention other movies that have effected my life. All the pretty horses. Dancer Tx Pop 81. (ask my family they had to spend a whole summer vacation visiting the places they filmed that movie) Thelma and Louise. Thats all I have now. Going to sleep . Love you all.

is it tacky....

to eat cheetos and drink white wine? if so, i am so tacky.

You know you live on a tropical island, with no air conditioner when...

you can't stand to have anything even remotely near your skin while going to sleep other than a sarong made of the thinnest material known to man! My Key West cold shower trick isn't working. I am sweating to death. And his picture is still not coming up. Bastard.

Just another day in paradise.

Today was weird. My life is a little crazy. My co-worker thinks I am the most fun person he and his friends have ever met and I have recieved more invitations to parties than anyone could ever attend. Its all because of the St. John Carnival night. You know, the picture where we are all having so much fun... Reminds me of this awesome lady I had on the boat on a charter one day. She was from New Orleans, she was 92 years old, sharp as a tack, taught me 5 dirty jokes and one killer toast, told me I was "cute as a button" about 8 times and nearly adopted me when I showed her my tattoo of the Fluer Di Lis I have on my left hip bone. She told me, "I raise my glass to every toast, accepting all invitations." I can only hope I have the energy to do so when I am 92. I got news from home, news from my best friend Kassidy, and thank goodness, for once, my best friend on the island Meg answered her phone. She came over and we watched Sex and the City, ate quesadillas and dip, drank kool aid, made coca cola floats, and talked about our plans. She is in the same situation as I am, she has family issues and friends getting married having babies sick relatives and all the dramas that i have too, and we both kind of leaned on each other today and have decided to stay through the tourist season to save money then go home. Too bad she has to go to Jersey... I am happy she will be here for me. We will be here for each other. She also had some interesting news about my ex, Josh, the only boy I have ever run back to in the history of me running away from boys, has been posted MIA. As in nobody knows where he is. He left about 2 months ago after saying goodbye to me one morning, hopped on a boat and headed across the Atlantic to England. Apparently he made it safely to England, but as far as that goes, no one has seen him since. His family has been calling, the company, old friends, me, no one has heard from him. I think I deserve that. It's all Karma dating back to my evil disappearing act of 2007. We wont go into that. I can kind of understand why one would wanna disappear for a while, but not from your family. They are worried Josh, if you read this, please call them. I don't care to hear from you but you have like a ton of home schooled family members in Wisconsin who don't understand why you would abandon them. In case something bad has happened to you, I hope you are ok, and I hope you are happy wherever you are. I am joining the search and rescue by posting a picture of you. He is on the right, wearing the stupid hat. He has plenty of identifying tattoos so he shouldn't be hard to spot. He is proof that once you stop running away from them, they run away from you. I didn't even do anything crazy!
I sure hope the first person to find him isn't me. I will give new meaning to "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.". In all seriousness, I hope he is ok, damn. I am so greatfull for my family and friends and I hope everyone is happy and healthy and just keep telling yourselves... "everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok then its not the end."

Today's picture from the past...

I knew it.

I knew there was a reason I had been thinking of coming home for the past 2 weeks, there is a reason the guy didn't call about the car, everything happens for a reason, and I am a little psychic. I didn't sleep a wink last night and now I know why.