Just crazy.

Last night was interesting. I ran into Josh at Rum Shack. I was fine with that, but the more I drank the more I got that eternal girl problem of "wanting to talk about it". But before I could get into that Scott showed up and asked me to come over to watch a movie tonight and I said yes without thinking about it because I was just glad someone was paying attention to me. Then on my way to talk to Josh I ran into Toby who gave me his business card and told me he wanted to take me out to dinner. On top of that this guy Mike was there and tells me I missed out on a great dinner when I turned him down last week. I'm like are you kidding me??? By the time I get to the end of the bar to talk to Josh he barely says a word to me so I go back over to Scott who just plants a big kiss right on me and I am like oh no. Now Josh is mad and Scott wants to know whats going on with me and Josh and I just tell him it's complicated and so now Scott bows up like boys do and was like "hes lookin at me im gonna go over there are kick his ass" WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH GUYS???? I calm him down and he leaves, I walk back over to Josh and he wont even look at me, says I should go back to making out with Scott. I swear, I can get myself in a pickle. So I end up crying and we talk about a few things and while I am wrapping things up with Josh my phone rings and It's a text from Matt, the cute drummer in Austin, says he wishes I was there. HOLY HELL. So I cancelled dinner with Scott, and locked myself in my room alone. Scott thinks it's because he got all crazy about Josh, I told him that I was sick. I lied. It was because he got real crazy real fast. I am starting to think it's best to just dream about the guy in Austin rather than actually come in contact with any guys on this island. I am going back to being a hermit.

Today. Jelly's were king.

I got stung by a jelly fish today. It swam right up in between my legs while I was being the jelly spotter for all my snorkelers when they were getting in the water. I was pissed. Literally. I didn't pee on myself to put the sting out but I poured some vinegar on it for sure. First jelly sting ever. I'm not even convinced it was a jelly sting. It was a moon jelly and it was head up like I didn't even touch me with its little flanges. The reason I don't really think it was a jelly, one, I have never been stung and I have been in the water with them like 50 times, two, I just shaved my legs and I think it could have been the salt water irritating my freshly shaven stems. :) Anyway, I came home and took a shower, got ready and wet over to Yacht Haven Grande to have dinner with Sarah. I stopped by the Rum Shack where Josh basically lives, and dropped off his stupid hat that he left at my house. I gave it to the concerned bartender who promised she would give it to him because she was sure she would see him soon. Drunk. I ran into Becca there and invited her to dinner, turns out Sarah couldn't make it and Becca and I had a lovely dinner at the bar and a few beers. Becca is from Richardson, TX, so we always have lots to talk about, it was fun and she drove me home just now. I am off work for the next 3 days, so me and Sarah are going to St John for late lunch and happy hour at Woody's. It' s 10pm, I am headed to sleep. I love yall!

I am ridiculous. My blog is ridiculous.

Today my capt. Jeff told people I have a website. Thank god no one asked what the addres was today. Today I worked with Sarah which I love. we made good money. Kilian was leaving the marina so he offered me a ride to town and I was down. So we get to the rum shack where we are meeting Meg, and of course Josh is there. I give him a kiss on the cheek. 45 mins later my quote un quote "boyfriend" has yet to speak to me. So I start taking the shots these random good looking boys are sending me. I finally get Josh alone and he says that he is leaving and going home blah blah blah which i am ok with . actually i am jealous that he is going home to visit his fam, but thats obviously not it, he keeps ignoring me to talk to some married couple who are taking him to get his luggage somewhere. At this point I have said I am over it, This is soooooooooo stupid .I have never been the kind of woman to stand by and let a man tell her what life is gonna be like. You better believe I am no starting now. I got a little lost because I thought I "loved" JoSh. People fall in love, they fall right back out. Guess what? I am a hard headed pain in the ass that is better off having someone on the side than having someone waiting at home. Thats the way it is, that is the way it always will be. "Crying over won't make it clean." I am telling myself that tonight because it's time to buck up and walk away. It's silly. I am going home. I'ts better to just cut this off now while I am mad then to let it linger. I do care about him but what good it that when he can let me stand in a parking lot an cry all the while he is checking the tire pressure on another car and calling someone to pick him up. I cant be someone who is ignored, (i apologie ahead of time for this) FOR FUCKS SAKE NO ONE HAS EVER IGNORED ME FOR ANY REASON EVER@!!@! I feel like I see so clear now. It's done. I give yall full permission to scold and disown me if I ever speak of Josh again. FUCK I AM ANGRY AT MYSELF. I love all of you and I apologize again for embarrassing my mom and family with this post. Maria back me up on this. Sometimes you just gotta vent. Thank god for Killian and Meg. They drove me home and tole me to forget about him . I am going to try. My family and friends are way more important than having someone in my bed every night. Besides, i like to sprawl out and he was in my way. THERE.

Well, I didn't throw up this time.

I totally gave in. I don't wanna hear any crap from anyone, I do what I want! Ha ha! Yeah... Josh and I made up. And I just so happen to have a new shiny bracelet now.... :) At least I am one of the few women on the planet who hates diamonds and jewels (unless they are in treasure form, under the sea, in a pirate chest, that I find while snorkeling) and he can get away with buying me sterling silver stuff. So, we hashed it out the other night. By "hash it out" I mean, he apologized and I cried. He is the only guy I have met that I can't go absolutely crazy on and scream and yell and act like a crazy person at. I try to be so angry and I have all this stuff to yell at him about and then it's just like... "oh ok, you're sorry? I guess thats cool." He can't even believe how calm I am. He said "I really thought you were gonna take me out to the parking lot and kick my ass." So it's ok again. I told him that I am leaving in the spring and he was like "oh yeah austin would be a cool place to live." I'm like uh oh. That is like forever away and knowing him, and knowing me, something will come up, he will dissappear, I will do something crazy, or something will inevitably happen between now and then to change our plans. I am still coming home, no matter what.

Work was long. 48 locals on the boat. We didn't make much money. I'm ready for a change. I am always ready for a change. I will stick it out till something else comes along. I got really sunburnt today for some reason! I never burn like this, strange. Well, I am very tired, so I am hitting the shower and hitting the sack. Ok have a good night!

It's been a while.

I have been busy with work and stuff, sorry I have left yall in the dark for a while! The week my family spent with me here in St. Thomas was amazing! We had such an awesome time. We rented Jeeps and visited 6 islands! Now it's back to the grindstone around here, work work work. Our newest crew member Sarah is only here for the summer but she is really great, we went out last night to grab some dinner in Red Hook then she wanted to see the other side of the island so we taxi'd over to Havensight and went to Offshore Bar. Things were going fine, I was feeling a little funny like maybe I ate something that was not quite right, but we shared a pizza at dinner so I thought nothing of it. We were chilling on a couch at offshore talking to this guy named Derek who owns the sailboat "Irie", having a lovely time when the door opens and guess who walks in... JOSH. I have never felt anything like what I felt when he walked in, like I was furious but I didn't want to let him see I even saw him, so I'm trying to hold a conversation with Derek all the while trying to ignore/look at Josh because I am just flabbergasted! Derek says, "uh, is everything ok?" I'm like, no sorry and I tell Sarah that's Josh and she blurts out "JOSH?!" really loud, I am mortified. I didn't even want him to know I saw him. I totally felt like punching him in the face and trowing up and crying and stomping around like a crazy person but instead I just went into the bathroom and threw up. I have never done that. It must have been the pizza and the drinks (i only had 3) and the emotions but man I fuckin barfed. I was kind of relieved. So I called a cab and went home. I set Sarah up with my friend Ryan who took her home on his way back to Red Hook. It was an interesting night. I tell ya, I've said it before and I need to start doing it, "I'm never leaving the house again." Unless it's to go to work of course. Oh and Sarah and I went out on Adventurer which is a sailboat like the Fury I worked on in KW, and we had a great time, but we realized that we are underpaid, and we work way harder for less money. Damn, we shouldn't have gone out there. Also I got an offer to bartend at the Mafolie restruant so I may do that a couple of nights a week. Just to mix it up. I know I'm forgetting something but I don't know what.

Ya see, I live on top of an old volcano.

And if this thing blows, I'm gonna go out rocking. I have turned up the Guns N Roses to 11 and I am dancing around like a pole dancer, cuz that's the only way you can dance to Axl. I love Axl.

I KNEW IT!

Yesterday as I was sitting on my futon watching tv, I thought for sure I felt my floor shake, being as how I am close to the airport I thought it might me jet engines or something, but I was like "man that was wierd." Today I downloaded this app for my mac called "Tremor Skimmer" and It tells you all the earthquakes all over the world at any given moment, I decided to check yesterday's and this is what I found....

Magnitude 2.6 - PUERTO RICO REGION
Date-Time

* Friday, July 11, 2008 at 20:46:47 UTC
* Friday, July 11, 2008 at 04:46:47 PM at epicenter
* Time of Earthquake in other Time Zones

Location 18.734°N, 66.896°W
Depth 61.2 km (38.0 miles)
Region PUERTO RICO REGION
Distances

* 28 km (18 miles) N (349°) from Camuy, PR
* 29 km (18 miles) N (9°) from Quebradillas, PR
* 29 km (18 miles) NNE (27°) from Isabela, PR
* 85 km (53 miles) WNW (289°) from SAN JUAN, Puerto Rico

Location Uncertainty horizontal +/- 1.3 km (0.8 miles); depth +/- 1.4 km (0.9 miles)
Parameters Nph=018, Dmin=37.2 km, Rmss=0.18 sec, Gp=256°,
M-type=duration magnitude (Md), Version=1
Source

* Puerto Rico Seismic Network, University of Puerto Rico

Event ID prp0819305


IT WAS A DAMNED EARTHQUAKE! Maria, can you send me the plans for your Quake Cave? I may need to build one.



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK! HOLY SHIT WE JUST HAD ANOTHER ONE! THIS TIME IT WAS CLOSER!

Magnitude 3.2 - VIRGIN ISLANDS REGION
Magnitude 3.2
Date-Time

* Saturday, July 12, 2008 at 16:39:08 UTC
* Saturday, July 12, 2008 at 12:39:08 PM at epicenter
* Time of Earthquake in other Time Zones

Location 19.042°N, 64.103°W
Depth 44.3 km (27.5 miles)
Region VIRGIN ISLANDS REGION
Distances

* 42 km (26 miles) NNE (33°) from Settlement, Anegada, British Virgin Islands
* 72 km (45 miles) N (7°) from West End, Tortola, British Virgin Islands
* 75 km (46 miles) NNE (28°) from Spanish Town, Virgin Gorda, British Virgin Islands
* 85 km (53 miles) NE (39°) from ROAD TOWN, British Virgin Islands
* 210 km (130 miles) ENE (70°) from Carolina, PR

Location Uncertainty horizontal +/- 9.8 km (6.1 miles); depth +/- 14.4 km (8.9 miles)
Parameters Nph=008, Dmin=87.9 km, Rmss=0.25 sec, Gp=335°,
M-type=duration magnitude (Md), Version=1
Source

* Puerto Rico Seismic Network, University of Puerto Rico

Event ID prp0819403

As Mel Fisher once said... TODAY IS THE DAY!

Mel Fisher found the treasure of the Atocha... I get to see my family!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAY! I have dispersed my gifts and trinkets to make their stay a little more comfortable, some locally made soaps which are lovely, some local beers which are tasty, some bottled water so they don't have to drink our crap water, it comes out of the tap hot as hell anyway, some glade fresh linen scented candles because you know you should always take a candle with you to a hotel, some local coffee in flavors : Mocha Jumbie and Rhumba Creme, (Maria you would love Rhumba Creme, it smells like Bailey's!) some coozies to keep their beer frosty, piratey luggage tags that say "Time flies when ye arrrr having rum", some USVI stickers for their cars back home, a tostonera for my mom, (it makes tostones out of plantains) and some assorted local herbal teas. WHEW! I still have to carry a case of water up 4 flights of stairs. I am taking a lunch break. And a music break. I am listening to Four Horsemen again, I am on a kick I guess. OH boy I am so excited! I just cant wait till 3:30 when my taxi man Vince picks me up on the way to the airport! Where am I gonna take Michael and Di for dinner??? Oh my! I may just keep them in French Town and go to Betsy's bar for dinner. Then I have to go back to the airport at 7:30 to get my mom and aunt! Then its pool party time!

TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY!

My family will be here beginning at 4pm! Woo hoooooo! It's gonna be great! I have arranged for my taxi man Vince from Dominica to pick them up at the airport. It's going to be so much fun!!! Today I am washing clothes, cleaning my apartment and doing some last minute shopping before their arrival. I need to head to the market this evening to pick up some bottled water and a few munchies for their rooms. 24 hours to go! I think I will go hang by the pool for a couple of hours, though I am watching the History channel at the moment and there is this show on about the Freemasons and the Knights Templar and all that crazy stuff, I am so into it. They know where my treasure is... What a sneaky crazy weird scary group. Oh secret society, what will you guys come up with next? Actually I think I will turn it off and listen to my ipod, I bought a CD from a local band called the Four Horsemen, they are so good! I'm gonna take my fam to see them play on Tuesday for my Uncle Michael's birthday. Click HERE to go to their site and hear their music!!!!

What a Day!

My capt. Clement went out of town for a funeral so an Ex capt Sarah came to drive. This lady is craaaaaaaazy! So much fun! Oh my gosh. And we trained a new girl who said to me " when can i work again, i can work every day" and im like "you will my child... oh you will...." She will be working for me this week while my family is in town. Worked out great. Last night the power went out at 3am, the second night I have my ac back and the power goes out. Assholes. Anyway, its back on now, but I am so tired. I am gonna have some cocktails by my self and make some tuna sandwiches. yep. Cuz my bestest friend Meg here in the islands decided to post the pictures of my going away party when I left for Australia. When Josh wasn't MIA, or a big jerk. So now Im pissed off. And sad because I was so happy with him. Thank god there is something to look forward to in Texas, and besides that after I move home to TX Maria will go back to Mex and I will visit her! Everything is going to be amazing. Just wait and see.

I love my new A/C!

It is 76 degrees! And for the first time in a month or so I used a blanket! Before this I was using a wet sarong to cover up with so when the fan hit it it cooled me down. Now its time to jump in the pool! yay! 2 MORE DAYS TILL THE FAMILY GETS HERE! AAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

To drink a warm martini

is to have balls much larger than your ordnary woman.
Guess I do.

Cus this thing is about 87 degrees. And now I have heartburn. where's the mustard? Woody taught me that the natural cure for heartburn is to swig down a teaspoon of american mustard. Guess what... it works. I love mexican medicine. Mezcal... tequila...peyote... sign me up from now on...

oh


12:09 pm
80 degrees F

11:44pm

80 degrees F. Matt is texting me... awwwww... cute.

So happy.

An old un kindled flame re kindles in the blink of an eye.

This is Matt. He worked with me at Chili's in Mckinney in 2007 or 2006 I can't remember when. Anyway we always had so much fun talking about music and he is a Drummer. Well he had a girlfriend when I met him who also worked at Chili's... I hated them together. I always though she was bad for him and a bad influence and that of course he would be better off with me. Well turns out things got bad and worse with those two and we lost Matt for a while. I kept in touch with Matt's parents to see if he was ok and he eventually ended up in the San Antonio area and has since moved away from the crazy girl and lives in Austin, has re started his band with his best friend and they are going to start playing gigs in the fall. Well we keep in touch and I always felt a good vibe between us and we have been talking alot on Facebook and Myspace and tonight I decided after he wrote me that he missed me, that I would spill the beans about my crush on him. To my complete surprise he said he felt the same and always thought we had a great chemistry. Now I have emailed him and said "STAY AWAY FROM ALL FEMALES TILL I GET HOME IN THE SPRING" good luck kiddo. Either way its so nice. Matt is really awesome. Tall dark and handsome. Has tattoos but not all over his body, Has a college degeree! I sure hope he doesn't read this and think im crazy.... Anyway. All I know is I am looking forward to Texas even more now.... :)))))))

10:45pm

81 degrees F.

Time and temp in Jolea's cabana...

the time is 9:57pm, the temp is 83 degrees F.

Its a miriacle!!!

Doug (dough) just put my new AC unit in! We checked the temp before installing it and it was 89 degrees in my room. Its now 84. I cant wait to see how low it goes. I may not even need to put ice in my martini glass if it gets cold enough. Love it! I cant wait to hang out in my room with my mom and my aunt and watch some TV and stuff. It's gonna be great. Doug also brought me the can of brown paint so I can paint my tree on my wall. Yay!

Today...

I spent some time in the pool, then went to the mall, bought Hope Floats, Crazy in Alabama and some new headphones, and then went down to the market because the only thing in my fridge was coolaid and condiments. I also picked up a HUGE bottle of Bombay Sapphire gin for only 13 bucks. I swear I am gonna miss the price of booze here. You can buy a bottle of Cruzan rum for 6 bucks. I just so happened to pick up a big jar of spanish olives at the market so I made myself a nice big dirty martini and watched two episodes of sex and the city. NOw I am watching this new show Wipeout. Its so freakin funny. Its a copy of Most Extreme Elimination Challenge on Spike TV which is way funnier but seeing as how I dont have Spike TV I have to settle for this. I am sweating my ass off. Still no A/C. I am so excited about my family coming on Saturday! I have tomorrow off too, because my boat is sick. Yeah I don't know. Can I just say how awesome it is to get a fresh half gal of milk??? Well it is!!! Its even American milk! Usually we get Puerto Rican or re constituted milk, which I don't drink. This stuff is the best! So my plan for the evening is to chill with my martini's and watch Crazy in Alabama, followed by Hope Floats, with Thelma and Louise to round off the night. Not going out anymore as I seem to meet the salt of the earth when I do. Speaking of meeting new people, there is a new guy in the hood. He lives next door to me in the next house down. Cute from afar, but could end up being a Monet. You know, looks good from far away but when you get up close its just a big mess. Anyway he was standing in the doorway like this but he didn't have a shirt on. I was on my way to town with my ipod blaring so by the time I noticed he said hello I was trying to scope him out secretely so when I glanced over he was looking at me like "hellooooo? rude." So all I could do was wave kinda, like a half wave like not even lifting my hand up past my waist. I am such a DORK!!!! I saw him again this evening on my way home from town, I walk past his door to get to mine and he opened his door and left it open so when I walked by I would say hi or something but I totally kept on walking. Whatever. I am seriously a big dork. I love it. I love my life!

OH! DAY OFF!

IM GOING POOLSIDE ALL DAY! No one can stop me. POOLSIDE I SAY! Poolside. All. Day. ONLY 3 MORE DAYS TILL MY FAMILY GETS HERE!!!!!

Oh wow.

So this afternoon Alex Akim and I went to Ashley's bar to have dinner, after dinner Sebastian met me at the bar and said he would drive me home. On the way we stopped at Betsy's which is just around the corner from my house, Sebastian gets tired and goes home, leaves me with these tattooed guys, whom I start chatting with. I am admiring his tat's when I realize he has the same tat I have, an old pirate rum jug, its on his hand plain as day. I take out a pen and draw how my tat is different than his. because of the aunt nasty homage. I comment on a tattoo on his neck of an outer space looking bomber thingy with stars around it like MArvin the Martian and all. Well long story short, he wanted me to come back to Hull bay with him and I wouldn't. now im home thank god, turns out he is in the Hells Angels. There is nothing wrong with them and i would love to be involved in their charity work.

Things I can't wait to do when I go home to Texas...

1. See my family and friends.
2. Wear my boots.
3. Buy a new pair of boots.
4. Eat at Taco Cabana with my Mom and drink a corona on the patio.
5. Go dancing in Ft. Worth
6. Sit on the deck in the evening while grilling out.
7. Sit on the bank of the Guadalupe for a little while.
8. Go shopping at Cavender's.
9. Drive all day long.
10. Frolic in the bluebonnets.

I will think of more. For the next 8 months my theme song will be: When the Bluebonnets Bloom by Robert Earl Keen Jr.

When The Bluebonnets Bloom

On a cold winter night, neath the silvery moon
I wished on a star, had a dream about you

Dry the tears in your eyes, I'll be coming home soon
Neath the wide open skies, where the blue bonnets bloom

Like a blanket spreading out as far as I can see
When those flowers line the road
You can look for me
I'll be hanging round the back roads like an old familiar tune
I'll be there when the bluebonnets bloom

Some people get goin to the top of the world
I'd rather be home with my bluebonnet girl
Cuz she's needing me, like a bride needs a groom
I'll be making her mine, when the bluebonnets bloom

Like a blanket spreading out as far as I can see
When those flowers line the road
You can look for me
I'll be hanging round the back roads like an old familiar tune
I'll be there when the bluebonnets
I'll be comin home you can bet on it
I'll be there when the bluebonnets bloom!

Oh I wish I could move back to Texas today!

I found my perfect place to live! Its in SMITHVILLE! Where they filmed one of my favorite movies, Hope Floats. Its a loft in the tallest building in Bastrop county! So cheap, but where the hell would I work in Smithville???

One year ago this week.

Fourth of July week, Me and Jess at the Ghost Bar on the top of the Westin Dallas. When I actually had to dress up to go to the bar, here I can wear cut off jean shorts and a Red Sox hat! Speaking of sports, I think I freak guys out with my knowledge of baseball and UFC. I sat at the bar with Boyfriend number one last night and watched the White Sox and the UFC fight all the while he totally looked bored, like any normal girl would. :) Then he went home early and I stayed on at the bar to hang out with ex boy toy numbers one and two. Inappropriate? I dunno. Thats how I roll. Now I sit at my window, listening to Robert Earl Keen Jr. on my Ipod jukebox, nursing the first hangover I have had in months, talking to the little brown lizard who just came in through the crack in the screen. As my good friend Aron Akord would say, YOU DONT WANT THIS LIFE!!! Ha hahaha!

damn damn damn

its a no go on Treazzure. They are booked solid the whole time yall are here. so we will just have to go and what we can when we can! Its gonna be awesome no matter what !

I got bored.

I cut my hair. I took like 4 inches off my bangs. I am not wearing any make up and look like the night of the living dead. I gotta go have dinner with my fake boyfriend. bye.

Today's picture from the past...

This is me circa 2005, lowering the main on the Schooner Liberty. Love that boat. Miss sailing.

Dont freak out mom!

So, I used to watch the movie The Never Ending Story like every day when I was younger. My mom hates it. I watched it the other day on tv here and it freaked me out. What a crazy story! No wonder I turned out this way, I watched too much Never Ending Story and Goonies! Wait, you can never watch the Goonies too many times. Funny picture.

More pics of Jack the cat.

Ok so how about this boat?

This boat is way cool and it lives in St Thomas! So, I am checking into it. I think it rocks because they have a cat. Treazzure.

Un freaking believable.

So, I am at home, its 10am, and I was supposed to be at work at 7am. Thank god it was a small group on the boat today. I slept through my sleep alarm. I hit the snooze button, so I thought, and went back to sleep. At about 9am I woke up to the sun shining in my window, which never happens because I leave the house before the sun comes over the Mountain, and I freak out! I call my boss after plugging my now dead phone in, restarting it because I have no signal in my little casa, and I get no answer. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT! I call the office and talk to one of our office girls Dereen, she just laughs at me and says that Akim did come to work and there were only 20-something people, these things happen. Well this has never happened to me, I am always so early to work and I NEVER call in sick. She said she would tell Clement I called when he calls her. I am sure he was calling my cell and getting nothing because I live in a cave and I never have any reception! I am so mad at myself. I am surprised my body clock didn't snap me awake. I think I was just really tired because I worked a full trip yesterday, then I worked a busy trip for the fireworks last night, and it was way past my bedtime when I got off work that I just had to sleep. Hope I don't get fired. We don't have a boat tomorrow so my next work day is on Monday! woo hoo! I better get over to the bank and get a money order to send home. See ya!

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I can't remember when I told you guys about Sebatian, my accidental boyfriend. It was a while ago, and he didn't call the next day like he said he would and so I immediately forgot about him. Well I was jut getting off work today but as it is the fourth of July I had to work tonight as well so I just went into Red Hook around the corner and ordered some food and when I went to the restroom, as I came out, I ran smack into Sebastian who I had not seen since the whole "you are my girlfriend" fiasco. He ran up and hugged me and exclaimed " I LOST YOUR NUMBER!" I said "THATS LAME! YOU SUCK! Then I sat at the bar and we chatted for a while, he was getting off work so I invited him out on the fireworks trip tonight, Sebastian, Meg and Killian came out as well as like 30 other paying customers. Ok I have to go to sleep its late I will write more tomorrow. Me and Sebastian are accidental boyfrined girlfriend again. uh oh. He is a nice boy. nite nite.

oh there he is. Josh is on the right.

sometimes life drops things right in your lap just when you need it.

Ok so I wish I could find a picture of Kevin Costner with his one armed shades he wears throughout the movie. This movie has been looming over me for a few months now, every time I look through Jill and Doug's movie collection I see it, I want to watch it but I never do. here is the premise..."college is over, real life can start. Well not just yet. The Groovers, five college roomates in Texas, class of 71, find breaking up is hard to do. " blah blah blah they head towards mexico, blah blah blah things happen, they fight, they make up, everythign works out, life goes on. The best part for me was the beginning where they showed west texas in all its desert-ie glory. Mentioning Marfa TX where they filmed Giant, and the real thing that got me, the fact that throughout the entire movie... Kevin Costner wears sunglasses that only have one arm. Exibit A. I have gone without a sunglass arm for over two weeks now. I don't know why. This movie made my cry when I saw a damn armadillo cross a road! What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!?! Makes me wanna mention other movies that have effected my life. All the pretty horses. Dancer Tx Pop 81. (ask my family they had to spend a whole summer vacation visiting the places they filmed that movie) Thelma and Louise. Thats all I have now. Going to sleep . Love you all.

is it tacky....

to eat cheetos and drink white wine? if so, i am so tacky.

You know you live on a tropical island, with no air conditioner when...

you can't stand to have anything even remotely near your skin while going to sleep other than a sarong made of the thinnest material known to man! My Key West cold shower trick isn't working. I am sweating to death. And his picture is still not coming up. Bastard.

Just another day in paradise.

Today was weird. My life is a little crazy. My co-worker thinks I am the most fun person he and his friends have ever met and I have recieved more invitations to parties than anyone could ever attend. Its all because of the St. John Carnival night. You know, the picture where we are all having so much fun... Reminds me of this awesome lady I had on the boat on a charter one day. She was from New Orleans, she was 92 years old, sharp as a tack, taught me 5 dirty jokes and one killer toast, told me I was "cute as a button" about 8 times and nearly adopted me when I showed her my tattoo of the Fluer Di Lis I have on my left hip bone. She told me, "I raise my glass to every toast, accepting all invitations." I can only hope I have the energy to do so when I am 92. I got news from home, news from my best friend Kassidy, and thank goodness, for once, my best friend on the island Meg answered her phone. She came over and we watched Sex and the City, ate quesadillas and dip, drank kool aid, made coca cola floats, and talked about our plans. She is in the same situation as I am, she has family issues and friends getting married having babies sick relatives and all the dramas that i have too, and we both kind of leaned on each other today and have decided to stay through the tourist season to save money then go home. Too bad she has to go to Jersey... I am happy she will be here for me. We will be here for each other. She also had some interesting news about my ex, Josh, the only boy I have ever run back to in the history of me running away from boys, has been posted MIA. As in nobody knows where he is. He left about 2 months ago after saying goodbye to me one morning, hopped on a boat and headed across the Atlantic to England. Apparently he made it safely to England, but as far as that goes, no one has seen him since. His family has been calling, the company, old friends, me, no one has heard from him. I think I deserve that. It's all Karma dating back to my evil disappearing act of 2007. We wont go into that. I can kind of understand why one would wanna disappear for a while, but not from your family. They are worried Josh, if you read this, please call them. I don't care to hear from you but you have like a ton of home schooled family members in Wisconsin who don't understand why you would abandon them. In case something bad has happened to you, I hope you are ok, and I hope you are happy wherever you are. I am joining the search and rescue by posting a picture of you. He is on the right, wearing the stupid hat. He has plenty of identifying tattoos so he shouldn't be hard to spot. He is proof that once you stop running away from them, they run away from you. I didn't even do anything crazy!
I sure hope the first person to find him isn't me. I will give new meaning to "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.". In all seriousness, I hope he is ok, damn. I am so greatfull for my family and friends and I hope everyone is happy and healthy and just keep telling yourselves... "everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok then its not the end."

Today's picture from the past...

I knew it.

I knew there was a reason I had been thinking of coming home for the past 2 weeks, there is a reason the guy didn't call about the car, everything happens for a reason, and I am a little psychic. I didn't sleep a wink last night and now I know why.